What's Going On?

Hello everyone!

I’m secretly hoping you all still remember who I am... I have been gone for quite a while as I've been on vacation since the 5th of August. I’m still in Bodrum (a vacation place located at the northwest of Turkey) which is a beautiful place but I was with my friends so I didn't have any time to pick up my laptop and do some blogging. I was craving it after 3 days though. I am back now and I will be doing frequent blogposts from now on. 

I was planning to write a beauty post when I first sat down to write but I feel like giving you guys an update on what’s been happening in my life lately.

• I will move out with my friends this month! After my vacation ends I will go back to Istanbul to rent an apartment with my friends and we will live in a house as 4 friends. I cant tell you how happy I am about this change in my life! I wasn’t quite happy with living with my parents for a while now and when I asked my friends (who were going to move out anyway) if I could move in with them they told me that they were going to ask me if I wanted to! I was over the moon and I still am! The only problem we have right now is that we cant find a good house! It either has a terrible bathroom, a very high rent or isn’t located anywhere near public transport. If we ever find a house that ticks all the boxes for us, it is either taken right before we make a deal or the owner of the house doesn't want students to rent the apartment. It is insane! We currently have our eyes on this one apartment and I’ve talked to the owner personally, she is lovely and she said she was going to start showing the apartment next Saturday which is perfect for us as we will all be done with our vacations. Please pray for us so we can get the apartment! We are desperate at this point! 

• I’ve been having a very great summer! I’ve been doing lots fun stuff ever since I’ve been off to vacation. First I went to stay with my friends for a few days so we could spend some time and go out together. It didn't go as planned though as neither of us wanted to go out at night. We just had fun at beach and in their homes and planned our life in our own apartment! We then went to Bodrum together to stay at our summer house where we had a lovely week! We went to the beach, spent the day at the poolside, played some cards, some ball, went out to party and did a boat trip! It was fantastic. 

• Second year of university is coming soon! I do enjoy summer and LOVE being lazy, not doing anything for the entire day but I have to say; I MISS SCHOOL! If it was high school I would beg for summer to last longer but I actually love my classes in uni and I enjoy going to the campus, I honestly cant wait until I can pick my classes for this semester on the 15th of September!

These are all the things I can think of that is currently going on in my life. Some exciting things are about to happen for me. How is it going for you? Give me a little update of your own in the comments :)

xx

Be More Like Carrie Hope Fletcher

Well this is an odd post...

However the title explains it all; I want to be more like Carrie Hope Fletcher. Whenever i watch one of her videos or listen to a song she sings i get that feeling. I discovered her not too long ago. It probably hasn't even been 2 months. Funny story actually; I was on Youtube and before the actual video i was going to watch there was an Alex Day "commercial". I thought it was a pretty fun channel and subscribed but didn't watch any of the videos. Few months later i was going through my subscriptions box and noticed that he hasn't posted anything since i subscribed to him. I decided to watch his old videos and then i came across Carrie. After wondering why he hasn't posted anything i googled it and felt terrible about the entire chain of events that occurred. 

Anyway, that is a completely different subject and it's a subject i'd rather not talk about. So i subscribed to Carrie's channel and watched a couple dozen of her videos and fell in love with her personality. She seems so real, so full of sunshine, she just has the power to make you feel like a better person. My mind is doing that thing again where i have more than one thoughts going through my mind which stops me from forming a good sentence. She is just such an incredible person and even writing about her makes me feel the feels. 

Of course i don't mean to say i want to be her. I do believe everyone should be themselves and not impersonate others or act a certain way that doesn't show who they really are. I want to be like Carrie Hope Fletcher because of her outlook in life. She is probably the most uplifting, caring, optimistic person i've ever come across. I realise this post just turned into a praise for Carrie(I didn't mean to do that) but i had this thought for quite a while and i guess this is kind of a new years resolution for me.

 I want to be like Carrie Hope Fletcher. 

Be more optimistic

Be more caring

Be more ambitious

Work harder for my goals

Have a positive outlook on life

Be kind to others around me 

Help others as much as possible

Be more loving

Appreciate life

I believe Carrie is doing all of the above and more. I look up to her so much. The fact that she is an actress is just spot on. I thank Alex Day for introducing Carrie to me in a way. 

I actually met and fell more in love with Carrie when i was in London for vacation with my mother. During the entire week i was secretly on hunt to bump into Youtubers as i'm quite enjoying Youtube and Britist Youtubers. So whilst we were in London we wanted to watch a play and the play i suggested was Les Miserables. I heard great reviews of the play and the London cast in the first place and Carrie being in it as one of my favourite characters was just a bonus. I just wasn't expecting this; MAGIC! The entire play was magic on stage. It was so inspirational and extremely empowering for an aspiring actress like me. I loved every second of it. Our seats had limited view and during the entire play, instead of sitting at my seat normally, i stood at such a way that i almost fell off the balcony. I wanted to take in every single moment of it. It was indescribable. What happened after the play was even more magical for me. After i had all the emotions during the play while we were on our way out all i could think about was "Carrie meets fans at the stage door" "Where can i find the stage door?" "My mom won't even bother finding the stage door" and the second we got out of the door there was another door right next to it with the sign "STAGE DOOR" on it! I freaked! We waited for close to 5 minutes and i saw everyone had a brochure for the actors to sign. I had not. My mom asked if i even had anything for her to sign and a lightbulb appeared on my head. I had my theatre tickets and a pen with me! She was the first to get out the door and i was standing right in front of it and she didn't even wait for me to say something! She instantly went "Hi there how are you?" I think that's what surprised me the most. She was so warm and welcoming. I was stunned. We had a little chat i told her that i loved her and she was amazing at her performance which must've been a cliche for her. But i really meant it. What i forgot to tell her was all the things i'm writing right now and the fact that i came all the way from Turkey to see her perform. It was definitely worth it! I almost didn't want to ask her to sign my ticket and ask for a photo because she was actually having a genuine chat with me. But i did it anyways because it was a one time opportunity and she was lovely and of course said yes. She signed my ticket and my mom took our photo and then i thanked her for everything and said i didn't want to keep her for long because there was a little queue behind me waiting to talk to her so we parted. I was so happy that night that i couldn't sleep for hours. Even afterwards, for weeks out of no where i just went "I met Carrie Hope Fletcher!" 

She is one of the sweetest souls on this planet and i'm so blessed to have come across her, even though it was through the internet. I believe i am not the only one she had this effect on. So thank you Carrie for spreading your fairy dust of optimism and hope to everyone who comes across you. You are truly brilliant. A real life Disney princess. 

Carrie's Links

Twitter

Tumblr

Wikipedia

Youtube

Instagram

Lots of Love,

MissAnnaSparks

Sorry...

Oh boy! I don't know how to start this post because i have neglected it for so long! I feel quite guilty about it...
I have been MIA for a bit not because I didn't want to write anything but because it has been such an emotional roller coaster these past few months. With classes, friendships being tested and family stuff I didn't have the energy to write anything and the sad thing is writing always calms me down so not writing made me feel even worse.
I am not going to make this a long post just because I wanted this to be a heads up saying there will be more frequent posts from now on, I care too much about quality but I guess I should put that aside and stop worrying much about it and just focus on the quantity for a bit. That is my motto for a while now. I hope you will enjoy the things I plan on writing.

Have a lovely week,

MissAnnaSparks

Semi-Colons, Broken Walls

I don't enjoy letting people into my life. And I don't advise others to let people in either. It’s dangerous. You let the them see the most sacred part of yourself. They have to power to look deep into your soul after you give them the permission to do so. They can know your greatest dreams, darkest secrets and your deepest fears in life. But the second you allow them into your personal space, they have the power to do whatever they want. Oddly enough, they always choose to do the one horrid thing that is worse than any other; they leave. 

  Everyone leaves you at some point. Whether intentionally or unintentionally, willingly or unwillingly, at the end they all leave. Back when I was naive and innocent, when I believed in happy endings, I let so many cruel people in and the ending was always as cruel as the previous one. 

  The story is always the same; someone supposedly different from the others approaches and decides to get to know you. He gives you these positive vibes but doesn’t have the courage to pursue any further so he just drags you along. Lets you feel like you’re actually happy with that person, that you’re really going to have a continuation this time. You think to yourself “maybe this time he wont leave, maybe I finally found someone who will stay.” 

  

  But no! As always something happens that is unknown to me to this day and they decide to leave and just stop being a part of your life. Just like that. No solid explanation, no apologies, no nothing. As if the person they left behind is supposed to go on as if nothing happened, as if they haven’t happened. You can’t ask for a reason or be sad that they left because of the complications, because you don’t want to show weakness so you just try to carry on with your life with the impact they have made on your life. Someone once again broke your trust. Gave you another reason to build up walls around your heart. Just as God put flaming swords around the tree of life to protect it from humans, you put up walls around your heart to protect yourself from getting emotionally hurt. And each time someone breaks down those walls and leaves you again, you have to start from scratch, build all those walls again, this time even stronger because the last time they were apparently too thin. 

  So my advice to you is not to get attached. Just don't do it and save yourself the heartache and the trouble of all the healing process. I’m not saying be alone your whole life but do your best to protect yourself, be a hundred percent sure they’re worth it before you let them in. Be strong because humans are attracted to weakness. The second they see a fragile little person they stick their nose into your own little world and they break your heart. And we all know how much of a bitch that healing process is.